Aha, now is one of the most memorable moments in Star, one i could never forget. As true as it is, we can never fathom what it was in the human heart.
I studied late one night, returning to my dorm at around 2 am after intense studying. Everyone wasnt sleeping yet,they were just talking in the dorm by the time i got back. It was a tuesday nigetht i think, and i am very tired. too tired. I was in form five back then,getting ready for spm.
i got to my dorm, eyeing who was sleeping and who wasnt. I went to my locker, put the key in, unlocked it, and suddenly BAAAMMMCLLLIINKKK CLLLINKKK! I was shocked! My mirror was shattered!
Everyone looked at me. I didnt look back at them. I was pretty sure i didnt open it to hard to make it break. I was just thinking, how could this happen? the i whispered to my neighbour. He told me just now they were playing football and the ball hit my locker. I said, OHHH,OKAY..,and i began to collect the broken shards. It hurt, yes, i was Furious! Shit! How can they just watch me without helping me out? i just kept quiet, and continued to clean the mess up.
Suddenly, a fellow called shahrul came. He said he was sorry. he was a rugby guy, so it would be awkward for a rugby boy to say sorry. He volunteered in helping me out as he said he was the one who kicked the ball and it hit my locker. I was shocked, as the fact is i was never close to him at all.
After that, he pulled out his mirror from his locker to replace my broken one. I was completely shocked. I rejected his offer, but he insisted,and he placed his mirror carefully at the spot wehere a mirror should be in locker. By the time everything is over, everyone is still watching me. They may have thought i may go off shouting, but i resorted to keeping quiet.
Maybe it was guilt that gripped shahrul, but maybe, it was a sense of responsibility towards me that lead him to helping me out. I forgave him that night, and i respected him from that day on. A gentleman at heart.
Saturday, April 11, 2009
Had a fight with Apam.
This is an open criticism, whether you want to see it in my view, or see it in another.
The story starts with me in class studying physics, and the class was empty except for some rugby players at the back of 4T, my class during form 4. We are supposed to be having a chem session at the hall( i cant remember which one). What i knew, the teacher in charge asked a boy named Apam, also a rugby player, to call those who skipped class to go to the hall. So he went up to 4T
There he found me and the other rugby boys. Yes,to be honest, i was never close to any one of them. What happened, Apam told them to go, they dont want to. Apam let them go. For me however, if he cant see me studying, he is BLIND FOR GODS SAKE! I am studying and he pushed my books of the table! (yeah, becoz of that,curse him, now he is only in matrix) So i went to the hall, and came back to push his books of HIS TABLE! If he cant respect my books,why should i respect his? And on the way, One of the books tore off. I dont care.
His rugby friends went to see him on the matter. It was recess, and he began to taunt me to fight. Oh, he was large, strong, but stupid? yes, to me coz if you dont respect knowledge, i will never respect you. So He punched me, and knowing he is the stronger one, i just pushed him off. His gang came and separated us,Kimi especially, a brawler, and some of my friends came and brought me away to the next classroom, 4S.
There, they want me to relax, and because one of my friends, his name was firdaus weddan, he had a very soft voice, so i broke down. It was because, if you let go your emotions in one go, you ll surely cry. And that was what happened.
I didnt enter the classes after recess. I dont want to go to class with red eyes.
When i went back to my dormitory, Apam and his friends are there. Well, they are my dormmates, and i could not escape from that. And when that happens, no word is said from me when i saw them. Apam approached me suddenly, and apologised. It does not matter if he does or not, he and i were never close, were never friends. It does not make a difference, he is just another passing by figure in my life.
The story starts with me in class studying physics, and the class was empty except for some rugby players at the back of 4T, my class during form 4. We are supposed to be having a chem session at the hall( i cant remember which one). What i knew, the teacher in charge asked a boy named Apam, also a rugby player, to call those who skipped class to go to the hall. So he went up to 4T
There he found me and the other rugby boys. Yes,to be honest, i was never close to any one of them. What happened, Apam told them to go, they dont want to. Apam let them go. For me however, if he cant see me studying, he is BLIND FOR GODS SAKE! I am studying and he pushed my books of the table! (yeah, becoz of that,curse him, now he is only in matrix) So i went to the hall, and came back to push his books of HIS TABLE! If he cant respect my books,why should i respect his? And on the way, One of the books tore off. I dont care.
His rugby friends went to see him on the matter. It was recess, and he began to taunt me to fight. Oh, he was large, strong, but stupid? yes, to me coz if you dont respect knowledge, i will never respect you. So He punched me, and knowing he is the stronger one, i just pushed him off. His gang came and separated us,Kimi especially, a brawler, and some of my friends came and brought me away to the next classroom, 4S.
There, they want me to relax, and because one of my friends, his name was firdaus weddan, he had a very soft voice, so i broke down. It was because, if you let go your emotions in one go, you ll surely cry. And that was what happened.
I didnt enter the classes after recess. I dont want to go to class with red eyes.
When i went back to my dormitory, Apam and his friends are there. Well, they are my dormmates, and i could not escape from that. And when that happens, no word is said from me when i saw them. Apam approached me suddenly, and apologised. It does not matter if he does or not, he and i were never close, were never friends. It does not make a difference, he is just another passing by figure in my life.
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